ink is the new black

I moved. I moved into a place worth going >> photos soon.

I am happy. It is undeniable that I am one of the happiest.

Justin and lil mums came down to help me move. What a.. blast? haha. We had a good time. We took a trip to Schaumburg to IKEA and enjoyed a small other part for US. The rest was for getting things settled in. That's ok.. for now.

I had someone follow me. Momentarily. And it has scared me for three weeks. It's interesting how an incident can make you so aware and so freaked out. I had stopped watching scary movies all of the sudden. I realized it October of 2008. I remember the evening exactly when I remembered my taste in cinema had flipped and hadn't noticed for almost two years. Shows you how into movies I am. HEH. I'm just bad at watching them.

Anyway, I don't watch scary movies anymore. The only violence I'm interested in seeing is stuff from Keanu Reeves or Schwarzenager, etc.. the good violence. So, I saw Law Abiding Citizen and not only did I barely sleep for about 3 nights.. I also cried during the movie and at one point, had to walk out of the theatre.

This is the same person who was in the theatre the opening night for SAW I and SAW II, FYI.

To add to the list of things I am not okay with:

violence, intended violence

people suffering

deceit

Lately:

ideas

feist

soccer

organizing

coffee

warmth that swoons the cold

sacramento/san fran on sunday.. ;)

babygurl better get some work done!

I made a mistake and I never forgot
I tied knots in the laces of My worried shoes
And with every step that I'd take I'd remember my mistake
As I marched further and further away
And my shoes took me down a crooked path
Away from all welcome mats
My worried shoes
And then one day I looked around and I found the sun shining down
And I took off my worried shoes
And the feet broke free
I didn't need to wear
Then I knew the difference between worrying and caring
'Cause I've got a lot of walking to do
And I don't want to wear
My worried shoes

Stop telling me the right way to go I'm on my own You're selling our old ways Stop telling me the right way to go  You are free You are free Living things need to be free You are free Like everything wants to be

..unless there's something beating in my chest

it's like a cigarette in the mouth or a handshake in the doorway.. i look at you and smile because i know i'm fine.

do not take it for granted. ever.

sans soleil

Dreams of: [for future]

design-wise:

my own photographer TEAM to go along with my design team

boardwalks

my own studio

a huge imac on my wall

a studio full of imacs/printers/textured papers

a wall full of paper samples

a wall full of painted fonts

people:

you

me

places:

sfo

seattle

portland

vegas

switzerland

Music I can't get out of my head lately:

Feist

Jenny Lewis

Mates of State

Miike Snow

Phoenix

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to people:

1. i hope you understand that always challenging everyone to BE FIRST won't get you anywhere but alone. but you already know that. because you're already alone.

2. come with me

3. we're going to make it better

4. you can't buy me

5. we compliment each other

6. continue to make sense

7. i'd get you out if i could

8. i'd keep you there if i could

9. i'll do my best to let you do what you need to do

10. i fully get why you are

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Been bad at updating this lately. I've been silly lately. Ready to buckle down and get in and messy.

I haven't felt this good sitting at my computer in months.

sun, people, cafe, coffee, colors, mood, freedom, plans

we are not special.

we are not crap or trash, either.

we just are.

we just are, and what happens just happens.

_chuck palahniuk