can't i just always have this?

you know when life just works?
that's today. well most of it.



highlights:
laughed with people i like
learned more about my baby brother
watched my two cousins seriously chomp a hockey team 7-3
#16! #33! my lil hockey rug rats
found prettiest scarf that i've seen in over 2 yrs. now its mine. #baller

it was seriously the best. i wish i could hang around my brothers all the time.

best lines:
jw: justin, you date girls that run out of bars crying. that's "your type."

kev: i kind of like this girl, i don't know what it is about her. sometimes i get the vibe she likes me and then other times i don't.
jw: just don't text her, you'll have her wrapped around your finger in no time. wait, does she have blonde hair?
kev: no, brunette.
jw: cool, do what i said.

jw; he's my precious baby angel
marj; he's so lucky to have a sister like you
jw; tell me about it
kev; dude, you're embarrassing

aaron: yeah i think you girls giggling missed like four goals actually. will it be like this the whole game?

i started designing this earlier tonight and decided i'd do one page of people per week that have been influential in my life. startin' with the closest folks.

blogging to american football, suits the scene

i saw this movie tonight:

it's so interesting the things that remind you in which capacity you are supposed to be maintaining young within. when did life get so serious? one part of me doesn't even want to sleep, i just want to work and feel something for what i spend all day doing. the other half of me wants to stay in watching hank moody be a rockstar on californication until something comes across the screen that reminds me what i'm fighting for. what omni track can swing me back?

my injury has really re-shaped my life in a magnitude of ways that are almost incomprehensible to someone like myself. i don't understand limits. always finding a rift in the rule book. isn't that the point? maybe a few other things matter, like surround sound or something. my body doesn't understand a life without endorphins, or... for fucksake, FUTBOL.

this year has been weird, in the most unsettling of ways. when something was dropped into my lap the other day (figuratively), i put my hands up and shook my head and asked "why the FUCK are we all living inside one big haunted house?" every person that's even moderately close to me is having a rough time. we're all just exchanging rooms with one another. and it's a freaking maze. i haven't outrun the men with chainsaws yet.

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the best thing

this is my life right now. it's absolutely excellent.

my suga's getting sowr

My baby brother turns 17 today. I feel like I should be stepping into an elderly home. I couldn’t imagine kevy ever being older than 12, with his curly blonde head of hair and DC shoes. Doesn’t it seem so often the case with siblings---they become closer when one moves away? Every day of my life while I lived with kev, I would beat up on him and he would tell on me. It was a great thing we had going…really. I moved away and almost instantly fell in love with my little brother. I worried about him all the time. I started finding ways to ensure he worked hard to have good grades. He has this naturally happy, honest and translucent aura to him. Incredibly tall, but very skinny- you always notice him… and he’s always always smiling. So impactful. I think of that smile twenty times a day.

I was visiting home one day this summer and we had spend the entire day at the beach. Went back to my mums and I was just relaxing in the four seasons room with my arms folded behind my head and my legs crossed above my feet. Kevin came and sat with me the entire time and just talked to me. My god, he can make me laugh. Like, really really laugh. He uses his hands when he speaks- I always appreciate people who do that. That day we’re both sitting there just talking about something my older brother had said while we were at the beach and Kevin stopped mid sentence, put his hands out and sort of up in the air and said “GOD I just canNOT get over justin’s hair. I’m justttttt OBSESSED with it.” My brother is a handsome fella and can make me laugh in about an instant with all his goofy voices. He always says to me, “jenny, you’re my girl.” But that hair… man, that hair… it’s his trademark. And kevy’s is his smile.

Things aren’t so black and white now, but I’m proud of where I came from. I have two astoundingly optimistic men as siblings and i’m so thankful I never had a sister. I can swoon most girls, but man… I do not like to share things with them.

Anyway, much love to muh boyz.

total tuesday; inspiration

what made me geek out today;

on tha' list

aaaaaand finally, THIS makes my 80+ hour week of work & freelance worth it.

again, check out project nia because they do awesome stuff.

bite o' fall - zaZZZZzzZZZing

saturday evening was:

fall - cider - cookies - rain - jams (notorious & xx) - pumpkin seeds - carving pumpkins -

........ALL IN PLAID! i felt like i was in a costume.

[hey, when is the last time you had a coat with a hood? hey fall, heyyy]

oh! yeah! i carved a spider-web pumpk! baller-style.

all the best ideas

ash and i used to have sunday fundays every sunday. then summer came and i started being out of town. we sort of had one on saturday. it was full of inspiration, music, sketching, talking, planning, figuring things out, solving problems, coffee, reading, 0o0o0oh and birthday ice cream... (and presents!)

[letterpress print i printed here over memorial day for ash]

they told me i don't need to worry

prior to heading out friday night, we had a dance and photo 7th grade party. it was awesome.


flat iron arts hosted a FASHION MASH this last friday. all of the flat iron studios were open and then a fashion show at double door. it was phenomenal.

[live music]

[obsessed with this guy...]

[the hipster version of eminem]
[fashion show]





[double door bathrooms...AHHH]