i don't have time to do this often, especially right now. i'm cramped for time. all the time. so, my blog is mainly for things i find interesting, the highlights and things i always want to remember. these usually have a lot to do with visual STUFFS. this post won't... but i hope (if i have any avid viewers) that you find something that reminds you of something important, entices you to think positive even if only for 5 seconds, makes you feel something worthy or just makes you laugh or.. goddamn, just makes you feel something.
turf grass fills my entire life; apartment, floors, bed, shower, clothes, laundry basket, bag, and HEART. awh.
the girls i coach have a record of 3-1. it's interesting coaching 9 year old girls. two of them scream the entire time... the smartest girl on our team looks at me yesterday, points to them and says... "THAT is why you don't sign up to coach U10 girls." I couldn't help but laugh. on that same topic, last week i watched them do SIX consecutive passes while scrimmaging and then my favorite girl on the team yells "ALLRIGHT GIRLS GET BACK INTO POSITIONS!"... there is a god. simply, there IS a god.
i've cut down from playing 5 nights of soccer/week to 3 nights. this is so i can;
a)graduate
b)give my shins a rest
c) be miserable
last week i made the switch from coffee to tea. i want to be hot my whole life. antioxidantsssssss... basically look for the crabby red head.
learned i'm in my friends' phone as jen w, jen chi, jen red, jen soccer... i HATE the name jen. if you know me, please try not to refer to me as a four year old.
walked through the downstairs of my work bldg the other day at LUNCH (your FREE TIME) and every single person had their head down to their blackberry or iPhone. SHOOT.
walked into a mcdonalds to get a coffee a few weeks ago... every single one of the workers greeted me WITH a smile and asked me how my morning was. even if it's only a ploy.. it's irony.
take note;
JL: you can make all that happen with just words
AB: great, now you're being cute and i have to give you ALL of it.
nicks beer garden
new soccer shop in wicker
OMNI
chuck: what is bff?
(comma)
JW: now i'm just walking around taking things that i want
LD: ummmm that's your usual..
LD: you have to be careful with these guys, they don't even know what girls are.
NB: i stand by my belief, if you're not doing what you love every day, or at least working toward it.. what the fuck are you doing?
two weeks ago, my boss: oh, by the way we want to make this friday thing permanent. and we want to pay you. and here's a key to the office.
RP: you've got good cleats, right? I mean... I KNOW YOU HAVE DAMN GOOD CLEATS.
jan: chuck said to look at the girls portfolio with red hair. the one with the REAL RED HAIR.
jw; "i guess i don't like it because the exclamation point is one of my least favorite punctuation marks."
kh: well, i'm officially taken
jw: oh. um..WHY?
last sunday was the best day i've had thus far in 2010. i didn't do anything special, didn't see anything ground breaking and certainly wasn't traveling. a friend of mine who moved to boston a little over a year ago flew in and we spent the day analyzing the city and enjoying each others company. you know, you know when things just.. work? they're simple and they're easy. isn't that the most important part? to me, that's the most important part of it all, of everything. after that, things don't taste the same anymore. what was BOLD before, no longer isn't. the things that used to stick out, now fade into everything else. the symmetrical turns asymmetrical. it's the thing that makes you throw your hands up to the sky.
the other day i remembered exactly why i was a designer. i haven't felt such an extreme in a while and i knew it'd come to me this quarter and i was just waiting for it. i was in a classroom after my class had already finished with about 3 other students and the most well renowned professor i've ever had. he walked over to my computer, grabbed my mouse, moved a few things around on my 20 page brochure, looked at me... touched my arm, smiled and said.. "you're fine. you're going to be fine, you know that?"
today, i spent the day at a design conference. i was given the opportunity from that same professor to show my portfolio during the "intermission lunch." some of the speakers were extraordinary. here is what you need to know (and what i want to remember).
Stacy Benson of Dotomi:
Have a solid creative contact.
An extension to an in-house team.
Always explain.
]Look at the results.
Grow; BE A SOLUTION.
Jana Kinsman - Crate & Barrel
"I only work in Helvetica now, so I don't remember these things."
VOICE FOR THE BRAND.
Dave Pfulgar - Burton Snowboards
Hang Tags. Burton logos on Sketchbooks.
Sketches>focus on the core of the idea rather than the color and type.
>re-invent the wheel every two years, completely start over.
"opening a box is like starting a conversation.."
Mike Segawa - Walt Disney
"too much paper, you know..."
Lawyers for creative arts
"watercolor class... you can't turn in a painting of donkey kong, you know?"
"I did a photoshoot thing, and i mean that's always really sexy."
"Next thing I knew, I was a Production Artist NINJA."
STAY VISIBLE.
It was his dream job to work for Disney. "....after, i just went home and got drunk."
>>have an art COMPASS.
and, here's the big part. i say this all the time but i'll say it again. life is so incredibly simple. i'm grateful for every day and i like pretty much everything in my life. i have a capability of handling situations in a strong and realistic manner. i try to think with my head more than my heart. sure, i like layers... i mean my whole life is a layered texture. that's probably the best way to describe it. but there just isn't any reason to complicate things or... "act like a girl" as i would generally refer to it as. i guess it's the answers we're not willing to accept that make it complicated. i've been through 500 trails of difficult things, but it doesn't blur my actions or reactions. someone once said to me "you just know how to deal with things" or something along those lines. i don't know, really, i honestly just learn things as i go. but i think it's working because i'm happy.
that was a preface to the big part. this is the actual big part;
i've been at the company i'm currently with for three years. it's an incredible firm that has provided me with extreme flexibility, promotions, credibility, references, and a ton of fascinating opportunity. throughout my three years there, i've been promoted three times and offered two full-time salary positions. the first one was unofficial, i was asked if i'd take it and i turned it down.
the other one was just recently. it was to take over my boss' position. i'd be overseeing four database systems and managing a team of twelve people. i'd have health insurance, a salary and a great experience. i applied. i got caught up. i floundered.
it took an incredibly inspiring talk and a gut feeling when i was handed the offer letter, but i turned it down. i declined-respectably and with great appreciation. that was wednesday. the rest of the day was "off." to be honest, after i had the "thanks, but sorry" meeting- i got drunk. much like the guy from disney i guess. everything felt off, nothing matched up. i sat up on roof at the wit hotel and then went out with friends to celebrate cinco de mayo---never celebrated that or st patricks before... a bunch of hooligans. however, we had a blast. i had a blast for sure. anyway, the important part is (as cheesy as it sounds) i feel it all over my body that i made the right decision. in the past 48 hours, i've witnessed about 50 things that have made me completely secure in knowing this was absolutely the right thing for me. ......and i think that's where it's at.
have to get ready for a game-
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